Sorry people, been away for quite a while. Wouldn't say its been a nice trip.

"Have you met anyone who has changed you?"
Tough question. My answer?
No Clue.
Somehow the person who was supposed to just walked right out.
Right out the door. Without a goodbye.
And she just had to turn around.
And scream IHATEYOU back at me.

Look, somehow I dont really want to go to sleep
with this thing at the back of my head
telling me its my fault.
Look, maybe i've changed. Maybe we've all just gotten busier.
I dont really want to live with this ):
Somehow it just feels lonely.
Without that someone who used to listen to you.
Talked to you.
Gave you the smile you needed.
Somehow, another reason to get out of bed every morning.

Somehow its all gone.
And I've got no clue of how and why.
Maybe its moving on.
Maybe you really were just another part of my life.
Just another flower by the roadside.
Cheering me up till one day i eventually left.

Maybe not just a flower...
Maybe a whole field full of flowers.
And somehow I just dont want to leave.

But i guess even if i didnt, you would.

If you want, we could
check back in a few months then.

Your name just reminds me
of how :) turned into ._.
maybe even >:(

Well I guess this is it.

I feel so Ne-Yo right now.
Somehow I'm mad, but
I really mean it when I say
I didnt want to hurt you

Seeya,
honey

I'll still be here,
it just depends on whether you'd come back for me

And maybe I was wrong, all the way from the start.
I was wrong, at least now i know i was.
Cause it wasn't meant to be.
And I can't help it.

I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong idea. I didn't meant to, honest!
Maybe it was a moment of carelessness, maybe even stupidity.
I just have this gut feeling it won't work out. If this stays then what about tomorrow?
What about ten years later? What about forever?
I have to stop. Stop now, as a matter of fact.
I'm sorry for any misconceptions, I'm sorry for everything.
Friends ain't that bad... I guess...

Friends... hmm I guess I realised what true friends were today :)
Thanks, my friends, for waking me up.
It was kind of a cold-cup-of-water-to-my-face kinda thing, though you didnt see it.
I'm grateful, and I guess I will always be :)
Hope we stay friends forever, true friends :)

You were right, R, there are true friends, real friends, best friends and just friends :)

"And I'll hold you tight and never let go..."

And its valentine's day again
And while people stay up as long as they can
I'll stay up with my cup of wine
Still wondering, where's my valentine...

I'd sit up all night,
Thinking of what's out of sight
Everything feels quite right
I'd do anything, to just see you, tonight

And while I sit up to think of you
I can't help but wonder too,
Wonder while I sit here with no clue,
If you ever think of me too...

I've thought of all the things we could do
We could set off, and colour all the things we drew
Or we could sit down and talk things through
Anything under the moon, as long as its with you

And I'll kiss you under the moonlight
And I'll hug you till the sun's up bright
And I'll miss you when youre not near
And I'll whisper with you while youre here
And I'll hold your hand while we watch the sun set
And I'll watch your back, so you'll never have to fret
And with you, we'll shoot the cupid' bow
And never let the feeling slow

All that, cause I love you so...

To my future valentine,
I know what to do to make you mine
So you dont really have to hide
Cause my love's like a train, except you can't alight

And much as I want to go out for a good cause I don't have one.

Yes, someone help me please. It's saturday, and I'm not supposed to be at home.
Not that you are, but you get what I mean.
When we're working we wish we were free but when we're free we wish we were working.
I should be out. Yes I should. And I very well know that.
Its just no one can come out with me. Or maybe no one wants to.
I dont know. Someone call me out please! (:

4 weeks has gone by haha. Fast, no? I've met you for four weeks, just four.
And I can find myself waiting by my phone for your text
hmm not really sure what to say now
just, happy birthday! now youre 15! (:
ah, yes, sweet fifteen haha (: quite marks the start of your teenage life.
well, thats what the experts say
All the fullmarks and praises and exams and all have brought you here
So just enjoy today, cause there'll only be one fifteenthbirthday for you haha (:

Happy Birthday! (: bestie haha :P

Its when you grow old that you decide that "Oh hey, thats how much i really wanted to see my childhood dreams come true" - Dr. Randy Pausch

It's so true isn't it? Took me awhile to realise ><
One of my childhood dreams in p6 was to actually go to Paris with *AHEMs* and kinda just enjoy my time there with her. And now it's kind of coming true! sort of.. at least :)

Sometimes, I don't know if its anticipation, a sugar rush or its just me, but sometimes I just stay up waiting for her text even though I'm not even sure if she's HER. Sounds stupid but still, can't really help it.
If the ceilings could talk, I think they'd know me very well right now, cause I seem to stare at them too much and it seems rude so it wouldn't be that rude if I knew them right? Anyway its good to make more friends. okay nevermind :X

Its been 2 days... Twoooooo days...
As if not coming to class isn't enough. Not being able to see you was worse.
And now you're leaving me in suspense. 7 words is enough to cause a sleepless night. If it weren't for science I'd be absent for another week (thanks, sleeping pills).
It kind of depends, really. Depends on how I look at it.
Losing you's a big matter, so much as I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to lose you either.
Sounds selfish, i guess. Its not difficult to figure out, no? ; You do know it, I ____ you, but love doesn't work that way. It has to be mutual, i guess.
Its just stereotype that I'm supposed to be the one making the first move.
But somehow I'm just not too sure yet.
I think this makes me selfish, cause much as you want to know, I want to know too.

In this area of life, I think its better to be more open. Letting your head lead isn't really... constructive, lets call it. Seeing her everyday and not telling kind of aches.
"OHHH,.. so this is coming from the guy who's telling me he doesn't dare to tell her yet"
Yes I know thats what youre thinking. Easier said than done, sometimes.
But still, it does make sense, no?

I think thinking at night helps, cause there's nothing better than the clear sky and cool breeze.
Even if you couldn't watch over her you could still say "at least the stars are watching over her "
It'll help, I think. It does for me.
Still it hurts. Knowing you keep something inside for her while she doesn't even notice.
At least I think she doesnt.
But I still stick to my words ; I mean it when I say it :)

And while I'm still fantasising, I'll wonder,
Will I hurt her if this goes on?

While the stars come out to wander
And singles start to ponder
I myself will think its so true,
Cause I do lie awake to miss you

Sometimes even though I'm ailing
I know my heart's still not failing
I'll still keep staring at my phone
Cause when you text, I don't feel so alone

It's quite stupid,
Come to think of it,
While people fear pain,
its love they still entertain

And while I still can't figure out why
It's still something I cannot deny
Cause I find myself still waiting
Even when you're already sleeping

It happened on the first ; a Monday
Dont care what they say ; it wasn't mundane
Took just a thought and no more
Cause its hesitation i abhor

I knew I wanted to see you
Not even sure if I should
Much as I needed to see you
Now it's a matter of whether I could

I still came, cause there was hope
Didn't care if people called me a dope
Cause it was all I wanted to do
Was it stupid? No, thank yew

So while I lay awake to miss you
I still teared cause I missed you
It was then that I needed you near,
Caused I really wished you were here

[Oh oh, for you I would've done whatever
And I just can't believe we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool, but I'm losing you
You know I'd do anything, there's no song we can't sing]

And as the skies grow darker
I stay up to think of you longer
If there was a star for every time i thought of you,
I think they sky would be bright blue...

As the nights grow longer,
Emotions do grow stronger,
If its pain then wish it away,
If you're alone, then I'll be here to stay
I'm just a call/sms away :)

And in the silence of the night,
When the time feels just right,
Looking at your eyes I'll be mesmerised
I'll love you so much it'll feel like a crime
And, as much as you'd want to,
I'll lean down, to kiss you

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