Every road has it's walker

Its been too long,
That I haven't seen you play
Play with, joke with, tease with
All the things we used to say...

Its been quite a while
That we haven't talked a while
Just chat, Just talk, Just say...
All thats been exiled...

Its been quite a few months
That I've made contact with you
Be it talk to, tease you, squeeze you
Telling you how much I love you

Now it seems its hard,
Hard to say, to speak, to understand
Because its only now that I know,
that you've found your perfect man...

It was after i met you
That i knew what friends were
It was after i met you
That i saw who wanted me to be here...

It was after i met you
That i knew how to treasure
It was after i met you
That i knew love couldn't be measured...

Now its been too long...
Too long since you were gone
Too long since i didn't talk to you
Too long since the last time I shone

When was it, the last time i shone
The last time i shone in your eyes
Did that time even come?
Or was all i told myself just lies?...

Would you be better off without me?
Because I wish not to be a burden
I wish not to be someone
Who lives like a leech on a human

Tell me, when you're down
Tell me, when you're sad
Tell me when
He's done something to make you mad

Tell me when you need me there
Tell me when you need help
Tell me when
I have finally made your heart melt...

Maybe you've found him
Maybe I'm him
Maybe all i am doing now
Is just hallucinating

Maybe I'm living a lie,
Maybe you love me not
But there's something im sure of
You're all that i have sought

Yes, i may live a lie
Yes, i may be a joke
But theres one thing in which
I just wont give up hope

Yup, I love you
Thats all i really know
Thats the only thing that I
From my heart i cannot throw

I may live a lie
I may be a joke
But theres one thing that never changes
One day, you'll love me, i hope

Time might just take its place
Time might knock me down
Time might just erase my memory
Every sight, every sound...

Over time, I might forget
Forget the things I knew
Forget the shames, the sorrows the fear,
But i know i wont forget you

Its a feeling time can't erase
Only the strong heart can
But somehow, I just can't do it
It's much stronger, than way back then

Its hard, its difficult
Its near impossible
Its painful, Its torturous
Now I think its unammendable...

Its too late i guess,
the feeling's grown too strong
Maybe all i can do
is isolate myself from you for a time quite long...

The thought of it stabs
The thought of it hurts
The thought of it...
Maybe it just might work...

No wait, not just yet
Not until you tell me
Not until you tell me if
I could be the boy you see

Not just yet, i wont give up
I definitely wont
When there's hope, I'll seek it
Find it, take it, miss it i wont

Love you, for infinity
Care for you, definitely
Worry about you, circumstancially
Love you again, indefinitely...

I don't know why
Why I did those stupid things
What went through my mind?
And I don't know why
Why I couldn't help you too
Guess that he was more than fine

When I'm not needed
I feel like I should be helping
When I'm needed
All I can do is the watching...

On some days, I'm happy
On others, I'm not
Sometimes it's others smiles,
The happiness that is sought
That brings joy to me
Something that cant be bought...

Sometimes your smile can be my sun
Light up my life, lead the way
And now I wish to thank you
On your very special day

Happy Belated Birthday!
I hope I'm not too late
I needed some courage to do this,
but earlier, it should've been said

Its your birthday, once a year
Only once, so do enjoy
I'm sure your family members
have more than just a little ploy

More than a ploy, more than words
to cheer you on this day
With words and songs and different gifts
And more than just things to say

Its your birthday, your special day
Where you celebrate with friends
And family and people around you
All the things, to you God sends...

People have dreams, people have fantasies
And people have wishes
On this special day, blow the candle
And think of it as more than just ashes...

Make a wish, for it might come true
And if not, I will
If possible, i will try my best
To make your wishes more than just a tale

Happy birthday, happy birthday
Enjoy this present day
For it will not come again
for the next three hundred and sixty five days =)

Invisible

Sometimes, i feel i'm invisible
Sometimes, i feel i'm not there
Sometimes, i just feel that
You think of me as your worst nightmare

I'm transparent to your eyes
Walking past you like wind
I try my best to do all i can
To make you happy, to keep my conscience clean

I don't talk to you in school
I don't shake hands with you
I don't make contact with you at all
Though my mind tells me i want to

Everything is so sophisticated
Everything, so complicated
Everything, so contradictory
Everything, too alienated...

Sometimes i feel you miss me out
Sometimes i feel you hate me
Sometimes i feel you miss me out
Because you're afraid others will see

Fear of the world,
Fear of attention
Fear of everything
to do with retention

Yes, I make your life hard
Yes, I make your life suck
Yes, I make your life
totally devoid of luck...

You hate me, i can see
In all the inner parts of you
But through sheer kindness and sympathy
You don't want to hurt me too

Sometimes, I don't want to be invisible
Sometimes, I want to let you know
Sometimes, its good to forget the past
And move on with friendship, without slow

I wish we could talk like we did
Like we did back then
Like we did when we were close
Like we did, when we were...friends...

Don't, please don't
Please don't leave me out
I don't like this isolation
It makes me want to scream and shout...

Invincible

We were, thirteen and invincible
Just sitting in the middle
Just minding my own business
And i couldn't care less

It was, January and i was invincible
Everything was suttle
Nothing could move me,
Not even earthquakes, you see

It was, February and i was, invincible
The first month i met you, and also sat with you
It was a feeling i couldn't tell
But, all i know was that it was surely true

It came, March and i was, invincible
I enjoyed talking to you
And I'm sure you liked it too
Though i'm not sure if it was true

It zoomed, April and i was, invincible
I was sure i loved you
But no i didnt tell you
Because i thought these feelings weren't true

It arrived, May and i was, invincible
I was so sure i loved you
that i could tell you how true
And i wished that you were moved

It came, June and i was, invincible
The month when we were
Seperated, how sad i was
But friend there were for me to cheer

It flew, July and i was, invincible
We were almost best friends
and i enjoyed talking with you
It was so awesome, i'm dead sure it was true

It rocketed, August and i was, invincible
The first time i said that
I loved you and that was what i meant
But i was not sure if you would say yes

It went, September and i was, falling
Because we couldn't be
what i wished we would
Though not now, one day you'll see =]

It loomed, October and i was, standing up
The exams were looming
and i was studying
but also, about you i was thinking

It came, November and i was, invincible
Invincible once again thanks
To my good friends
But soon my ship sank

It sucked, December and i was, heartbroken
I hardly talked to you
Because i knew you didnt want me to
But i still kept my feelings true

It came, January and i was, headstrong
School had started
meaning i could see you again
But our friendship departed

It came, February and i was, heartbroken
I could see you daily
But you didn't talk to me
It was real pain, i hope you could see

It soared, March and i was, solemn
I tried to forget you
but try was all i could do
My love for you was just too true...

Flying again, April and i was, so upset
That you were behind me
and you, i couldn't see
Though my love was still growing like a tree

Running past, May and i was, rather down
We havent talked for three weeks
And i was still thinking of who i could be
To maybe allow you to see

It came, June and i was, just so dumb
I didn't talk to you
making it seven weeks
I started to feel, we could never be two...

It came, July and i was, inspired
I was sure, and if i could
I would be friends with you again
But avoiding was your mood

It just went, August and i was, barely standing
I tried to tell you
but no, my dream didnt come true
But love you still? i know i want to

I am, fourteen and invincible
Because my love stands strong
and nothing can break it down
This feeling will last more than long

My name is, Quan Rui and there's something i wish to say
That is, that i will love you to the very end
I'm not sure, if one day you give in
But if you do, i hope that your feelings will be really true~

-QuannRUi~ Still loving you