Its when you grow old that you decide that "Oh hey, thats how much i really wanted to see my childhood dreams come true" - Dr. Randy Pausch

It's so true isn't it? Took me awhile to realise ><
One of my childhood dreams in p6 was to actually go to Paris with *AHEMs* and kinda just enjoy my time there with her. And now it's kind of coming true! sort of.. at least :)

Sometimes, I don't know if its anticipation, a sugar rush or its just me, but sometimes I just stay up waiting for her text even though I'm not even sure if she's HER. Sounds stupid but still, can't really help it.
If the ceilings could talk, I think they'd know me very well right now, cause I seem to stare at them too much and it seems rude so it wouldn't be that rude if I knew them right? Anyway its good to make more friends. okay nevermind :X

Its been 2 days... Twoooooo days...
As if not coming to class isn't enough. Not being able to see you was worse.
And now you're leaving me in suspense. 7 words is enough to cause a sleepless night. If it weren't for science I'd be absent for another week (thanks, sleeping pills).
It kind of depends, really. Depends on how I look at it.
Losing you's a big matter, so much as I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to lose you either.
Sounds selfish, i guess. Its not difficult to figure out, no? ; You do know it, I ____ you, but love doesn't work that way. It has to be mutual, i guess.
Its just stereotype that I'm supposed to be the one making the first move.
But somehow I'm just not too sure yet.
I think this makes me selfish, cause much as you want to know, I want to know too.

In this area of life, I think its better to be more open. Letting your head lead isn't really... constructive, lets call it. Seeing her everyday and not telling kind of aches.
"OHHH,.. so this is coming from the guy who's telling me he doesn't dare to tell her yet"
Yes I know thats what youre thinking. Easier said than done, sometimes.
But still, it does make sense, no?

I think thinking at night helps, cause there's nothing better than the clear sky and cool breeze.
Even if you couldn't watch over her you could still say "at least the stars are watching over her "
It'll help, I think. It does for me.
Still it hurts. Knowing you keep something inside for her while she doesn't even notice.
At least I think she doesnt.
But I still stick to my words ; I mean it when I say it :)

And while I'm still fantasising, I'll wonder,
Will I hurt her if this goes on?